Christmas time can be rough! It’s not lost in me that this is the most difficult time of the year for many people - not the most wonderful. I’ve been there and I get it.
You don’t have to pretend to be happy, but try not to wallow in your pain - that’s how despair sets in. THE LORD IS WITH YOU! You are NOT alone! His grace is available to you and so is His comfort. It’s ok to not be ok, but it’s not ok to stay that way. Fight for joy - it sounds weird, but I’ve done it - I didn’t feel joy so I asked God to help and then I fought for it… and He showed up and strengthened me.