As I grow older, I’m able to look back and see how God answered my prayers in ways only He could. I’m also able to see times when I had drifted away from prayer and how that affected me - my attitudes, actions and abilities. I can see the fragility of my own heart.
I remember when I believed so strongly in my own strength and abilities that I faced things without prayer - even though I had a great relationship with the Lord, I figured He made me strong so I could handle this on my own. Then I discovered that He was the source of that strength and it didn’t work so well when I was trying to be independent.
Learning to be dependent on God and to trust the gifts and callings He has put in me is a lesson learned in daily prayer - in my friendship with my Lord. I pray that I will fulfill my purpose like David did, “For David, after he had served the purpose of God in his own generation, fell asleep and was laid with his fathers,” Acts 13:36 - unlike David, I am redeemed and though my body will die, I will live eternally with the Lord.